The Summer arrived with a flourish! As in, the kids all dramatically dumped their backpacks inside the front door and I ordered a pizza, sat myself in a chair and blew my bangs out of my face. We'd survived, on so many levels, one heck of an amazing school year. It never ceases to amaze me how much you can really handle once you have a chance to sit back for a second and look at things from a different perspective.
Several things came into play during these last few months of school that had me on edge quite a bit. For example, we were facing having to move as our landlord has been planning to sell and move to Hawaii. That set my mind into a tail-spin of sorts. The market here locally is a nightmare. We faced both the rental and buyers markets with hope that the perfect place would come along if we just crossed our fingers and toes, put the word out and hoped for the best. No such luck in that department. But God works in mysterious ways and all we had to do was be patient. (Gosh was that hard.) Though our house is half packed in the expectation of having to leave, God put a little twist in to things and we're now sitting in the half packed house that is now our own! Talk about an unexpected turn of events. You should have seen the kids faces when I told them that unfortunately things were not going to change much, that they'd still have to share a room and put up with tight quarters (they really don't mind so much), because we don't ever have to move from here if we don't want to. The shouts of joy and relief at not having to change schools and leave friends was worth all the anxiety and stress that I've been trying to hide from them these last months.
Breath in, breath out. Relax. Hang the curtains. I can decide where I want things to be with permanence. It's a lovely feeling of being grounded. And now it opens a new door for me to settle into some things that have been ruminating in my mind for months.
I'm glad to be here.