He Who Strengthens Me.

 Last Sunday at Church my priest came over to say hello. As I struggled to keep my youngest contained he joked, "How are you going to take care of these kids all by yourself?" What he didn't know was that on the inside, he made me cry. My quick and not thought-out response was, "With God's help!" Because honestly, how do any of us do it alone?! We're either mad as the hatter, and/or we depend on God to get us through. As of late, God has been carrying me through!

While I carry my young ones through their days (often times literally), God's been providing strength and encouragement along the way. He's very merciful. Oftentimes, all I can do is offer up that "Yes" that we're all called to, and hope and believe that he's going to guide my way.

The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged." Deuteronomy 31:8

I like to think of that passage as God's promise to me. He's not going to leave me when I am afraid or unsure of myself. He's bigger than anything that could come my way, and he's going before me so I don't need to be afraid. I'm human though, and I do get afraid. (I'm a work in progress!) But I move forward anyway! More often than not, in my head I'm literally throwing my fears into the wind and doing the next logical thing that is set before me. God keeps catching me and placing my feet firmly in front of me on solid ground.  The unknown is often the scariest thing, wouldn't you agree? If we just do the next logical and morally correct thing...really...things fall into place.
 There have been several friends that have stepped up and offered to be of service when I truly needed help. That in and of itself is a great gift that God has poured out into my life. Life circumstances can bring out the best and worst in people, and it's always bittersweet to recognize who your true friends are. Sometimes they come in the most unexpected packages, or end up being the last person you would have thought of. What is truly precious is realizing that a good and true friend will encourage you on your journey, ask you the hard questions, help you see things clearly and not judge you if your choice differs from what they personally may have chosen had they been in your circumstances. They will call you and with all sincerity ask, "What do you need? How can I help you?" I've been blessed abundantly with friends that I can put my needs or questions before and count on getting honest and true advice or help.

That strength that God gives through friendship is tremendously helpful when I have these little eyes looking to me for guidance and leadership. That I don't always have the answers to things has me running to seek out more answers all the time! Thankfully, these sweet eyes of my children seem to love unconditionally. I find that honesty helps. "I don't know, but let's figure it out together." 
The thing is...I don't think that we're meant to have all the answers. And I think that, as Scripture says, His power is made even more present through my weaknesses. Miracles abound when I depend on Him, and I'm surprised quite often by the generosity and beauty that is poured out on me in my life.

Do I know how I'm going to get through A,B or C? No, but I know who I can trust for Strength. 

1 comment:

  1. I just stumbled upon your blog as I was looking for Saint stuff for All Saints Day! You are an inspiration! I have a kiddo on the spectrum, so I know what it is like to have no time to myself. Thanks for sharing your life! It does help others to know we are not alone on our journeys!



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