What's up is that I'm just busy being mama. Actually I have a lot going on. With the kids wrapping up the end of the school year, and me trying to make sure that we are all caught up...well that's a job all in it's own. I'm also in school. And working some jobs on the weekend. And throw in everyone's therapies, and well, I just don't have a whole lot of free time on my hands. I'm not always caught up with things, the house can be a mess, and the best I can do are quick pictures with my phone's camera. But we're happy, and life is full. Isn't that what it's all about anyway?
Just today it struck me a bit more that I need to take a step back and stop trying to keep up with the DIY Jones'. Instead of working on a project I had in mind this morning, I got my younger kids dressed and we went for a walk before if got too hot outside. I love love love crafting, and arts, and DIY stuff, and cooking up glorious stuff. But really....I just want to make sure I'm doing the best I can for my little flock. They don't care what my photo's look like as long as they can see themselves in them! They don't care what the brownies I bake look like as long as they taste good. If they're happy with the paper-bag puppets that have glue dripping off them, then I've won the jackpot. So...I guess what I'm saying is that I'm not sorry for not making pretty on the blog too much lately.
But wouldn't you step away from the blogosphere to gaze into this pretty little face? She melts my heart!
In quiet moments, right before I fall asleep and often right when I wake up in the morning, I worry that I'm not doing enough. I haven't worked on blogging or done any fabulous projects. I haven't "proved my worth". But who am I trying to prove myself to? The kids just want me present, to share their stories with, to read to them instead of reading the latest blog posts from my favorite bloggers. This must be the right decision, stepping away to be with them, because they're happier and so am I. This season is theirs. Before long, they'll be running away from me instead of towards me. I'm trying to soak it all in, and provide them the foundation they need. That's the most important work right there.