When it comes to the business side of things with diapers and such, I call on the Lord a lot.
I can use all the strength and encouragement I can get.
Unlike some of the amazing women whose blogs I follow, who seem to let the bad just roll off their back, I'm overly tender I suppose. Perhaps too sensitive. My husband is my sounding board and cheerleader. He knows that I love to create things, and that I like sharing my talents, and he's always encouraged me to do so. He's also my defender. He sees how discouraged I can get when someone has a mean word, or when there are misunderstandings, and the first thing he wants to do is run to my defense. "I'll talk to them if you want me too!"
I'm learning from these experiences. I have to find my voice amidst these things. That is so hard for me to do at times because all I want to do is make everyone happy! I make myself sick with worry and anxiety. My husband has seen me drive two hours for a piece of fabric just to make someone happy. At my own expense. It's part of business, I suppose. Misunderstandings happen. Or I make mistakes. Or any other number of things can happen. Things get lost in the mail, or damaged. I get incredibly discouraged at times and just feel that maybe it would be easier if I just went to work somewhere instead of trying to stay home with the kids. That was the whole point after all. But if I'm getting so upset and discouraged, why am I doing it? I want to be a good mom to my kids, bring peace to my home. Working from home is the ideal, indeed. If you can't leave the "work" at work...that is when working from home gets hard. It's all intertwined. My kids see the struggle in my eyes sometimes.
I don't know the answer to this struggle. I do my best, which isn't always so great, I admit. I keep trying though. I won't let the discouragement take over, but sometimes I question what I'm really called to do in these situations.
Do you ever feel this way?
"Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing." "Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial; for once he has been approved, he will receive the crown of life, which the Lord has promised to those who love Him" (James 1:2-4,12).